I’ve almost fogotten what it feels like to care
all the effort and energy it takes to accomplish nothing
but shattered dreams and broken hearts
that deflating sense of abject failure creeping up on you
even when the signs are such to see it coming from miles away s
tripping you of everything you put into something new
and leaving you for dead
right where you started to claw your way out of
so why bother?
Let that self-destructive desire to try again just pass you by
and learn to enjoy that hole you fell into
when you succumbed the last time