So Far Further

I fall at a moment’s notice

and when I fall, I fall forever.

Never does any day pass

that I’m not at risk

of captivity to some stray memory.

Reminders of the places

and flashes of the faces

that meant something

sometime, somewhere,

drift in and out of my awareness.

I sit in awe

(and some slight fear)

of just how deep the ties can be

through all this time and distance,

no matter what has come before or between,

no matter the strength of whatever

may have come to break the bonds between,

they will seemingly always remain.

Thin and frail though they may be,

their tendrils reach into my soul

to tug at heartstrings

with fleeting, feeble flashes

of what was and might have been.

And though I regret little,

I can’t help but wonder

when these moments

and memories cross my mind

about what might be happening now,

so far further down these roads…