Still Hold On

Another night, another dream

Reaching out for something

that I’ve never really known

Empty-handed, something’s missing

Something strong and overwhelming

out there somewhere in the darkness

Something I can’t describe

And here I am, buried under fantasies

of what might have been

in another lifetime far away

So far beneath the light of day

the surface seems so lost

My mind made mountains out of naught

but tiny grains of sand that slip through fingers

and yet weigh heavy on my soul

Memories, illusions, ephemeral reminders

of what I thought could be but never was

that creep up every now and then

to grab me by the shoulders

and make certain that I can’t break frre

So here I sleep, alone again

shut tight sway from everything

Dreading what the night brings forth

to haunt my humbled, harried head

Pray I wake one morning

to the light, so safe, so true

that I might use to burn away

these shadows that still hold on