Month: December 2022

Another night, another dream

Reaching out for something

that I’ve never really known

Empty-handed, something’s missing

Something strong and overwhelming

out there somewhere in the darkness

Something I can’t describe

And here I am, buried under fantasies

of what might have been

in another lifetime far away

So far beneath the light of day

the surface seems so lost

My mind made mountains out of naught

but tiny grains of sand that slip through fingers

and yet weigh heavy on my soul

Memories, illusions, ephemeral reminders

of what I thought could be but never was

that creep up every now and then

to grab me by the shoulders

and make certain that I can’t break frre

So here I sleep, alone again

shut tight sway from everything

Dreading what the night brings forth

to haunt my humbled, harried head

Pray I wake one morning

to the light, so safe, so true

that I might use to burn away

these shadows that still hold on

I looked right through a ghost today

I’d like to think she doesn’t haunt me

But that’s a lie I tell myself

Judging by the way I’m feeling

Knowing that I passed right by

And all the baggage that used to be

Keeps piling right back on my mind

The love I used to hold so close

The bitter anger that developed

The apathy I wrapped around me

The painful lack of understanding

That broken soul once left these here

I fought so long to shake them off

And now with just a moment’s gkanxey

I find them crushing me anew

I hope the spirit’s sleeping well

With all the anguish that she’s brought me

May she never know the trutb

Of just how much she got to me

The place she’ll likely always hold

A nightmare I played part in making

Locked up so tight in that ivory tower

Those stained glass curtains and gold-plated bars

Silk-lined restraints you can’t help but pull tighter

And that key you keep close could help set you free

But why show yourself to the truth of the matter

Gilded cages bring such sympathy

Shy away from the world and hide behind others

Who needs to wander the harsh world outside?

No need to worry, or wonder, or work for a living

Just let them keep handing you food through the bars

Never a moment to face down the darkness

When the self-sentenced prison is well-lit and warm

Please don’t let darkness make that light fall dormant
The one that shines brightly, so free from your eyes
That beacon of hope in a sea of blank faces
That draws in lost sailors and guides them to shore
Though it may seem such trouble to serve as oasis
That which you provide is a much needed boon
I can’t speak for all that find their way to your waters
But I will drink lightly and take only so much
And I would give freely that you might know purpose
For it can’t be so easy to hold up that smile
Or to shine on so boldly, but shine on you should
Stand like the lighthouse that cuts through the fog
May you help guide the lost and forsaken back home