The last act of a drowning man
Cast adrift in everything
To reach out for the vessel
That carried him this deep, this far
And promptly dropped him on its course
Following its own ebb and flow
Riding current no one sees
That push it on and pull him under
Sink in struggle and confusion
As the waters carry on
We all must reach the end
Sometimes the open door
lets so little light in
that it can’t even hope
to pierce the veil of shadow
that swoops in to surround you
Look with both eyes open
eager for the moment
Never let your guard down
before you find the end
Nothing lasts forever
The darkness isn’t endless
no matter how it starts to feel
when you’re pushing through
Nothing is ever as simple
as a cute and catchy headline
but so rarely do we look
at what lies between the pages
to find the truth in fiction
of this world of make-believe
Taken at face value
when just a little searching
would make all the difference
we take the easy answer
and walk away still blind
Maybe next time
I stop to wipe my feet
on the welcome mat
I won’t turn around
to find the door
slammed in my face
You loved me once
In my head, every day
Each dark moment you made brighter
Each struggle you made easier
Each load you made lighter
Until that moment I saw through
The illusion I had crafted
And all that weight
And all those shadows
And all that endless struggle
Came back stronger, and darker, and heavier
All that I’d avoided and escaped
I couldn’t escape the truth
All lies must fade
Even ones you tell yourself
To hide the world behind
The strength to make it through
Must come from somewhere
Much safer and long-lasting
From inside
Echoes from the empty walls
When everything is stripped away
The moments that we don’t expect
Spread chaos through their flapping wings
Webs spin beyond control
Guiding not so gentle pushes
Steering in a new direction
But every path is dark and barren
Searching for a chance to breathe
And not to feel quite so alone
Lost in the endless nothingness
What’s left of life built carefully
Crumbles into ash and dust
And disappears into the night
Replaced with haunting melodies
The silence that envelops me
Isolated in this hell
Made the best of everything
But it wasn’t good enough
To stand up in a time of need
And now it’s gone away
It couldn’t have been real
But for a moment, I believed
That inspiration struck
And granted all the motivation
That I find so lacking now
With the charade ended
Truth gave me nothing
But stripped away so much
Tore apart the fantasy
And took away the reasons
Sealed off the well
I was so busy drawing from
Left me all alone
To face the challenges
Always there behind me
Nothing to reach out to
So little left to fight for
But somehow I must fight on
In those smiles I saw reflected
All that we could ever be
A mirror held up to my dreams
Everything I’d ever ask for
The wars ahead all made worthwhile
And though i know now I was foolish
To pin those hopes and dreams on her
Still the source of inspiration
Keeps up the fight and leads the way
I hope someday I can find her
That would make my world complete
So that I may stand before them
And see that mirror once again