it was nothing for you
…but to me it meant everything
and I can’t quite seem to let it go
even now, years gone by,
it still comes to me in my dreams
and though I know the times are gone
some fragment of my soul still wanders
wishing and wondering for a chance
a fleeting glimpse of what never was
only in my fantasies
the ones I let myself fall into
to hide away from the truth
what touched me so strongly
what consumed me so greatly
was the product of circumstance
empty words, empty gestures
of someone seeking an escape
with implications greater than they knew
impressions drawn from nothing
a promise of a lifetime
which was never truly spoken
desperation born of silence
the inevitable collapse that I can’t seem
to find my way clear of
that first moment, when you looked at me
still burned into my mind
and the last, with nothing left
when we both turned away
the extremes of the emotions
and the echoes of the laughter
it may have been an illusion
but one which I still feel
no matter how I try to let it fade
