Another year I wasn’t promised
And nothing here to show
So much lost, slipped through my hands
Just standing here a little older
Trying to find lessons to learn
So that there might be some reason
To the madness that has passed
And maybe the lesson is
That not everything has meaning
And life is just a chaos game
Zero sum with no clear goals
Maybe someday I’ll find answers
To the questions I still have
But this rotation led to nothing
But loss and failure and emptiness
A hole inside me I can’t fill
A lack of that which I can’t define
So here’s to another cycle around
One which might bring what I’m seeking
May it leave me more fulfilled
Than the one I just survived