Breathe
Just let it all go and breathe
None of it all really matters anyway
Things will go on
For better or for worse
One moment
One day
One encounter
One mistake
They don’t mean anything
To the grand design
That we’re all a part of
The world keeps turning
The sun keeps shining
Just breathe
I don’t have bad memories of you
Only of your exit
And your absence from my life
I think that’s part of why I can’t forget you
Because the thoughts aren’t the part that hurt
It’s the lack of new ones to be made
And the very thought
That all those little moments full of meaning
Only really meant something to me
I can’t imagine that you think of me
Nearly as often as I do you
Otherwise it wouldn’t have been so easy
For you to pull away without a word
And so here I am haunting myself
With absent minded reminders
That I can only hope will one day bring me joy again
I sit down to share my emotions
But all I’ve got left is cliches
Endless recycled phrases
That never quite mean what I feel
It’s all been said and done before
Not sure why I feel the need
To try and rearrange the words
Written down millions of times
In every possible permutation
To the point they’ve lost all meaning
But I keep on trying
To carve out my own place
In a field that doesn’t need
Anything added to it
You said your piece with silence
But even in the quiet
You refused to listen
And now the words are festering inside me
I keep choking on the bile
Every time I think I’m over it
A little piece of poison
Finds its way back into my heaf
So much left I feel the need to say
But of course you’ll never hear a peep
Punished for my caring
I wish that I could return in kind
But you never really seem to feel
Uncaring and unthinking
Hiding behind silent walls
Unmoved by my meaning
So I still suffer through
There’s beauty here you’re missing
If you’d only look
Beneath the surface
Peel back the layers
Find the open spaces
Spread your eyes wide
Let the light shine in
And see what lies beyond
I could show you
A whole new world of wonders
Just waiting for discovery
Meant to be experienced
You just have to reach out
Hadn’t thought about it
Just how disappointing
Your lack of understanding was
And still is in a way
You just couldn’t comprehend
What it was I wanted
Not sure what it says about
The whole situation
That instead of valuing
What I tried to offer
You dismissed me outright
And even seemed to hate me
How sad it must be
To always think the worst
And push away anyone
That just wants to help you
That’s what’s still the saddest thing
You just couldn’t see
The truth in what I tried to say
And you likely never will
To both our detriments
But there’s nothing left
That I could do to convince you
You closed communications
I just hope that you don’t come
To regret your course of action
Giving up on something real
For a fake and hollow world
I have no words left to say
There’s no one left to listen
So few ever really seemed to care
And as I tried to call out
To find some solace from the struggle
Nothing ever came in my direction
The echos of the emptiness
Are all that’s here to turn to
Hardly what I want or need
But that’s all I have left
So I’ll hold the silence tight
Wear it like an armor
No one will see my heart again
It lies beneath the quiet
Bend, don’t break
Hold fast against the pressure
Stay strong and carry on
Through the endless waves
An end will come
Someday
The storm rages
But only for so long
Just wait it out
And when all calms and clears
Stand tall
No one ever gives a damn
When you’re down and out
No one’s gonna give you that helping hand
You’ve gotta find a way
To pull yourself together
No one’s ever there when you fall
So get the hell back up
You’re the only one
That knows where the pieces went
And how they fit together
So get them reassembled
Don’t give them the satisfaction
Of leaving you in the mess they made
When they broke you and walked away
Live and live well
And next it’ll be your turn
To turn that blind eye on them
When they fall apart
Don’t worry about me
I’m fine
I always will be
Right until I’m not
And have never been
I’m broken
Still useless
Falling apart
Over and over
Not sure what matters
Or why I’m here
But I’m still here
I won’t go away
Don’t know how
I’ll keep going
Dragging along
Through the mess I make
Only makes it worse
Don’t know how to feel
Or what I’m supposed to be
I just know this can’t be it
Nothing’s right
It’s all a sham
And as I try to fix it
I only get more btoken
When does it stop?