You’re still the first I think of
When I experience something
That I just have to share
The one I wish I could talk to
The smiling face I look for
When reaching for that lifeline
And it’s so sad and stupid
I never meant that much to you
We were never anything
But you were the closest
I’d had to a best friend
In what felt like forever
I put too much on you
I understand that now
Too much of my friendship
Too much of my mental state
Too much of myself
How I wish I could take that back
And never fall in love with you
Never open myself up to fall
I miss your presence still
And I fear I always will