I Wasn’t Anymore

You broke me without trying

You made me feel useful

You gave me a place I felt I belonged

As if magic

When I needed it most

Them you vanished

You made a space for me

Then pushed me out

Slammed the door behind me

And locked it

And now I’ve been out here

Back in the cold and lonely

For so long I’ve forgotten

How safe and warm it felt inside

You used me and tossed me aside

Like last year’s toy

Amazing and wonderful then

Boring and useless now

You gave me self-worth

And stole it away

And I’m struggling to set myself free

From needing your approval

Because I’ll never have it again

And I know it

But your approval meant so much

For the fleeting bit of time you gave it

That I find myself unable

To forget how it felt

To be what you wanted

Right until I wasn’t anymore