I Fall

I always fall

And when I do

I fall for the unavailable

I fall for the unobtainable

I fall for those that would never in a million years fall for me

I fall so far so fast that I fly right past the warning signs

Past the obstacles

Past all reason and common sense

Right into the trap that I keep setting for myself

And when I fall

I fall hard

I fall deep

I find myself drowning in it

Overwhelmed by the sensation of it all

To the point that I lose sight of reality

It feels so good in that moment

But then the moment passes

And everything I fell right by

Comes rushing in to face me

And I find myself having to find a way back

Back to where I fell from

Alone

I fall

And it takes so little time to fall

But it takes a little longer to get back up each time

And I always fear that the next time I fall

And no one’s there to catch me

That I won’t find a way to rise again