If only I could find
Something that makes me feel
The way your smile did
Not the one you gave to everyone
That cute little lopsided thing
You always flashed my way
The sign of welcome relief
That I knew all too well
If only something could take the place
Of the sound of your laughter
It used to lift me up
Like wind beneath me
Carrying me through rough days
If only there was a way
To match the boost you used to give
To my waning self-esteem
And find that little push I need
To fight my way through the darkest days
But alas, it’s not to be
Nothing can take the place you left
Not in quite the same way or shape
It’s up to me to find a way
To make it without those gifts you once gave
But if only…