It was the furthest from first sight
(perhaps that how it happened at all)
Such a slow descent to madness
I lost myself in her somehow
despite knowing all the dangers
Something in her sucked me in
right past the warning signs
She hooked me without trying
and reeled me in just far enough
that when she cut the net to throw me back
I no longer knew which way was up
I’d have followed her to the ends of the Earth
Stood up to anything and anyone
just for the right to win a heart
that was never meant to be mine
And when it grew too much for her
the distance proved too much for me
and I almost felt into the void
she opened up between us
But as I find myself crawling out
little flashes of those moments
that pulled me onward in the first place
show up out of nowhere
to try and knock me off these ledges
back into that giant hole
Some part of me would love to find
the way back up onto her side
of this great divide
but even in the deepest darkness
the grandest part of willful ignorance
I know that isn’t meant to be
and so I struggle up these cliffs
trying to find my way back to me
and hoping when I scale this
that I( don’t find myself falling
from trying to peer over this distance
to find her again
