Forgive me while I self-destruct
You were the pin I pulled
The stand-in for everything I valued
That was better thrown away
(in my twisted head, anyway)
Than appreciated for what it was
Always wanting more
But never quite feeling
As if I deserve any of it
So here I am again
Picking up the pieces
Of another near-explosion
Wishing I could have it all
Back the way it was
I was the closest to happy
That I’d ever been
And likely ever will be
But it wasn’t enough
To quiet down the voice of doubt
It creeped back in
Took back over
And now I’m left broken
With nothing to show