I always focus in on the wrong thing
The biggest mistake wasn’t falling for you
I don’t regret showing you my soul
Letting you in wasn’t the disaster
The moment it all fell apart in my hands
was when I panicked and lost control
When I saw it all going up in flames
and my first instinct
was to throw gas on the fire
I should’ve stayed calm
I should’ve stayed cool
I let old fears and habits stand between us
set myself up to push you away
And I have nothing and no one to blame”
but myself
It’s too late for explanations
and the apologies aren’t worth their words
The chain reaction I sent in motion
by letting it all overwhelm me
has left me broken here
with nothing to show but an endless obsession
a life full of holes
perfectly shaped like all the things I’ve lost
scars I have to learn to live with
somehow
