All I wanted was a chance to be your biggest mistake
Instead it was me that made the wrong choice
When you first called my name I could’ve walked away
But I stayed and I put my heart on the line
Gave you the support you seemed to be looking for
Was I supposed to predict that I’d need it instead?
I couldn’t have seen that I’d come to regret
Being who and what I’d always tried to be
Letting you draw me out of my shell
Only to have you push me back inside
Lock me back up and throw away the key
Slam the door in my face, yet stare in the peephole
Are you happy? Are you entertained?
Does it give you pleasure to know
that some part of me still gives a damn
despite all the pain you put me through
All in the name of defensing something
I was never a threat to
unless there’s something you never told me
(which would be funny, since I was always honest)
I’ll never understand exactly what led us to this
Was it fated to fall apart from the beginning?
Was it all a waste of time?
I can’t bring myself to believe that
even knowing how it all turned out
There had to be a reason behind it all
some meaning that I’m missing
too caught up in the grief and mourning
to see the silver lining waiting near
Maybe someday I’ll find it
and be able to set regret aside
And somewhere in my heart I hope you’ve done the same
