It Won’t Matter Soon

I guess it won’t matter soon

I’ll be done with her forever

Never have to see her again

But that’s not what I wanted

Not now, not ever

I wanted to fix things

I wanted to be friends again

I wanted to be a part of her life

In some way, shape, or form

I didn’t want to be stuck here

Wondering what’s going on

I didn’t want the silence

I didn’t want her to just disappear

Never to be heard from again

But it won’t matter soon

Soon she’ll be gone forever

And never have to see me again

I’ll be just an unpleasant memory

And she’ll be my biggest regret

And that’s just how it will be