Month: February 2020

Why does it matter
if you’re still in my head?
That’s my burden to bear
and none of your business now
I’m allowed to think and feel
anything I want
and you know I won’t do any more
than I already have to hurt you
so why bother yourself with me?
I’m nothing to you now
which is supposedly what you wanted
So just leave me to my self-torture
and enjoy what you have
You’ve got what you wanted
so please don’t rub it in
and don’t lose part of yourself
over me

I haven’t given up yet
But I probably should
It’s never gonna be the same
Any chance I might’ve had
In whatever future dream
Is long gone
And in its place
I’m left with nothing
But regrets and awkward interactions
And memories of what was and might have been
Just idle fantasies
That I’ve clung to in desperation
Trying to make sense of things
When nothing has to make sense
And as much as I try to understand
What happened, why and what went wrong
There simply are no answers
Nothing to wrap my head around
Just questions driving obsession
Pushing me slowly off the cliff
I wish I knew
What it was you were looking for
When we made our connection
And why hang on so long
Only to pull away
But that insistence on explanation
That search for closure
Is what’s driving me insane
So I need to find a way
To juet move on
To let it go
To put it all behind me
As you seem to have so easily
But I just can’t seem to pull it off
I guess it’s just not in me
To let go

Let me love you
Feel your body next to mine
I’d drink of you until I get my fill
I want to touch you
Hold you
Know each and every bit of you
I want to spend a thousand lifetimes
Exploring all there is to you
Every curve, every fold
I want to taste you
And bask in the glory
Let me worship you
As your body and soul deserve
You’ve lit a fire in me
Now let me fan your flames
That we may burn together
Ever higher
Let it take us both
Until there’s nothing left
But passion and desire
Smoldering in the ashes of ecstasy