Please just show me something here
give me some reaction
yell
curse
cry,
or just say a single word
Do something to make me think
I at least mattered somehow
because as far as I can tell
we were never friends
and my being there for you meant nothing
and that hurts more than anything
the idea that I misjudged you so completely
that I’m left here in silence
no reaction
no explanation
save second hand news
I fucking struggled with my feelings for so long
trying not to come between you and him
knowing that I’d lose if I did
and here I am having lost anyway
because the only time you’ll even look my way
is when you think I can’t see
I’m driving myself crazy here
trying to understand
where I failed so badly
All I need to move on
is just a word from you
just tell me to walk away and I’m done
but you can’t even do that, can you?
You can’t look me in the eye
and tell me any of this
You have to pass it through people
that have no business knowing anything
Well I’ll air my dirty laundry
the only way I have left
and hope for some kind of resolution
that’ll likely never come
