Despite My Best Efforts

Despite my best efforts
I just can’t seem to let go
You can still draw me in
from across a crowded room
And though I see it far less now
your smile is still as beautiful
ss the first time
And though the pain has lessened with time
it still feels like something’s missing
Like there’s a hole in my life
where you used to fit
The jagged edges have softened
just a bit
and likely with more time
there’ll be just a scar
but for now the wound’s still open
and every time I see you
or think of some little thing
it reminds me it’s still there
and yet I can’t seem to look away