You’re the last thing I think of at night
And the first that I picture when I wake
But I just want you out of my head
It’s all such bullshit fantasy
Dreams that will never come true
An obsession that lingers long past its prime
Something I wanted but could never have
And my subconscious should’ve known better
It was always too good to be possible
There was always something in the way
And no amount of me trying was going to get through
But still I can’t get you off my mind
Even now, as I dodge the painful glares
Where once smiles came my way
And as I feel the cold radiating off you
Aimed in my general direction always
It changes everything and nothing at once
I just want to be rid of this
I want to move on with my so called life
I don’t need the reminders of my failures in my face
What I desperately wanted and could never have
How I tried to push for more when I should’ve walked away
And even know, keeping the distance you asked for
Thoughts of you won’t leave me be
Just leave me be
