Best Life

If only it were possible
To turn these feelings off
And never have to deal with them again
Just lock them up
And throw away the key
And I’d be good
But I can’t
I still worry
I still care
I still want to see you living your best life
But it hurts
It hurts that whatever that is
Won’t have me in it in any way
But maybe that’s for the best
In the end there wasn’t room for me
In your quiet, ordered world
I caused too much disruption
And now I’m on the outside
Looking in
Hoping only that you find
Whatever makes you happy
And that one day I can look back
Without regret