Arrogance and ignorance
how long has it been
since I let you take control?
Apparently not long enough
Where was that vaunted self-awareness
I always prided myself on
when I was busy self-destructing,
throwing away the very thing
I was so obsessed with keeping
and why come back now,
practically useless in your timing?
You’d think by now I’d have outgrown
the sins of my past
but no, of course not
those same old failings
and trappings of disaster
rest there in the back of my psyche
just waiting for an opportunity
for those feelings of frustration and inadequacy
to tear at their walls
so they can latch on and be free
to make good things die
and bad things worse
and feed on the problems they cause
and now here I am
trying to clean up the wreckage
having apparently learned nothing
from all the times before