I hate how much I need you
I shouldn’t need you
I CAN’T need you
I can’t have you
Nit the way I want
But that hardly seems to matter
Because I do
I want you
I need you
You save me
From the darkest parts of myself
You give me strength
And purpose
And sense of direction
Things I haven’t had in so long
I’d forgotten what they felt like
You raise me up
Just by being there
You’re exactly what I needed
Exactly when I needed most
But you can’t be what I want
And I hate it
