Month: August 2019

Oh, sweet torture
I wallow in the pain
watching you
wishing I could give you everything
knowing I’ll never be the one
Ah, that’s the way
twist the knife in my own heart
the wound isn’t quite deep enough
I can still feel
I close my eyes
and see your smile
and find myself wishing
that it was me you were smiling for
Tell me again
how much you care for him
I haven’t felt this burn in far too long
Bathe me
in the light that shines from your eyes
when you think of him
so that it may burn its way
into my soul.

How many faces do you have?
Do you carry them in a pocket?
Do you keep them in jars?
Can they be left out overnight?
How do you decide
which you to show the world today?
Do you swap them out at will?
Do you even realize that you do it?
Or is it so ingrained
so natural
that a new you takes over every time?
Because I can see
the cracks in the armor
The facade is fading,
falling,
but I’m not good enough,
not strong enough
to force my way inside.
Underneath it all
there’s a light shining,
a promise of something beautiful.
There’s a real person in there,
trying to break free,
but only you hold the key
and you keep putting on masks
to hide that beauty away

I never quite seem
To get what I want
I always have to settle
For second best
(at best)
But maybe in this case
Second best isn’t so bad
If I can help you
As much as you’ve helped me
Make it through rough days
Then it’ll all be worth it
If I can be for you
What you’ve been for me
Then who am I to ask for more?
I’ll be grateful for what I’ve been given
And thankful just to be close
And who knows?
Maybe one day I’ll be your second best
And you’ll have to settle, too.

I have nothing to offer you
But I’ll give you all I can
All the support
All the encouragement
All the time and attention
All the love and affection
Everything in my power to give
I’ll hand over gladly
But you deserve so much more
Than I’ll ever be able to give

You need to be free
to fly away
to become what you were always meant to be
You need room to grow
to find yourself
to finish what you started
when you first stepped on the path
Don’t hide away
don’t hold back out of fear of what might be
Step into the sun
soak up the rays and let them empower you
Stand up
There’s so much more you have to offer
Take those steps
don’t avoid the struggles
Embrace them
Fight through the battles
to the spoils on the other side
Be what you were meant to be
Be free